Honoring 9.11.01.."Shattered Dreams and Unsung Heroes".....

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{{ first posted to Blog on September 11,2007 and these were my thoughts that night....Thoughts Now 2009 are at the end }}
Post below was written on the eve of 9.11.01, I have never put it on my blog before.I wrote this about 12 hours after the 2nd Tower Fell.I was living in the Northwest in a small town in a little house with a little picket fence at the time, my son was 10,and I was still married.I wrote this sitting on my porch, late at night.I have lived in 6 places since then, and my son has grown into a teenager....I have tried to always make him a Home....and give him a sense of Peace and Community.My own heartbroken path has taken me on spiritual journey that can not be denied....and yes,it is intrinsically woven into the Dark Time in our History and has been drastically affected by the Bush Regime.I am even more sad for this Country, Our Country, then when I wrote this....I still treasure what matters....I blog it everyday.namaste. 9.11.07}}
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Shattered Dreams and Unsung Heroes 9.11.01... 11pm

We went to bed last night and we woke up and nothing will ever be the same.Our televisions brought us such images of death and destruction that have never even been portrayed on movie screens.Not at home, Not in Our Backyard. Not Here, Please not here, not in Our Home Lands.Not in the United States.And then we listen to familiar Voices trying to explain what can not be explained, Peter Jennings and Arron Brown so calmly trying. A New York Skyline resculpted by a monsters plan, a shredded symbol.

As these images flash across the screen I am left with images in my mind of people trying desperately trying to get to those they Love.Firemen groping in rubble and smoke.Unsung Heroes who ran into buildings to help people because that is their calling.

Reporters and cameramen filming while running desperately trying to still get the Truth Out.I am stuck with the realization that hours earlier, they had breakfast,walked their dogs,laughed with their kids..Hours later they may have been clutching perhaps a wallet photo and whispering "Goodbye"and "I Love you " into a cellphone...Courage is found in the Rubble and the Dust,dark smoke does not cloud such Bravery....Rubble,ashes,and paper falling like snow, like tears.....a Deadly Rain.

Tonight my son is drawing SuperHeros with his friend, and they are eating peanut butter sandwichs, and my dog is in the yard, and my cat is still pestering the Canary outside in his cage under such a blue sky, and those skies are so ominously silent.My husband is a flight nurse and I look expectantly at the skies, for the first time EVER I don't want to see him flying.I want his feet on the ground.And I am haunted by the date, 911.. Emergency.

So What do we do now my son asks ? It is a good question. Then he asks about the People Wanting Revenge, and I have to tell him that for this level of destruction and death,there is perhaps there is no Retribution, that Revenge does not measure out when there is Such Evil at Work.We have to stay calm and focused,being careful not to judge What we can not understand.

So what to We Do now? .....Perhaps we try to take care of each other,hug our kids a little harder,check on neighbors,give blood, and we pray and we light candles. Be gentle to each other my friends and have Hope. And remember days like these are full of Unsung Heroes that can be eclipsed by the tragedy of the moment. They are People just like You.
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September 11th 2009.....Millions of us voted and worked for Change....
We as a Country are still recovering from 8 very long broken shattered years....the Damage that occurred was not really caused by the Terrorists...it was caused From Within....and the Aftermath...It is in many ways like Katrina, it was not the Storm that was so Dangerous...it was What happened afterword... We have a new leader..and the Wounds are deep,because the Bush regime took our country in a dark direction, there was spying and Lists, and lies and Illegal Wars, and torture and more lies about the lies...there is much Healing needed...and so we push on ...looking for the Hope...and holding it dear....Change has come...but the Fabric is still tattered..Worn to the threads...So we keep looking for the Light and to each other...its up to us to repair the fabric..together....with gentle hands....and our hearts...Reclaiming Moral Courage is a whole different path.
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And every year I light 11 candles and play this song...."Hands" by Jewel...

And then there is this song, A Very special version of Shower the People....after all of us had worked for so many monthes to Change...we came together.....