Saturday, November 02, 2013

Holding Time....

Taking a moment to really see the world....the Leaves changing...the crisp autumn sky...the blues...the wispy clouds...Yesterday part of my day was spent caring for a man dying...there are always certain patients that have a way of tugging at your heart....at stopping time..he is one such patient....he told me " I need to have someone to pray with....to eat lunch...hold my hand....give me a hug....and maybe look at the Leaves Change Color one more time...one last time "....As I walked him to the bus stop...we stopped and looked at the leaves, some changing color, some already on the ground being swept up the street in a musical breeze...and he sighed and smiled...together we stood watching them in their glory...the Trees standing tall...with their last colors of the year.....Nursing is not always about the rushing about, or medicating people...it's the little things...the smallest most meaningful moments held quietly and carefully....

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

October's Challenges....

October was spent in a quiet struggle, unseen by most. I was trying to get into school. I started applying to schools in June and by July had applied to a BSN/MSN Nursing program and applied for financial aid. I have been working Temp jobs all year, so I needed to apply for financial aid. I actually got accepted to the Nursing program, but then the Aid part became a battle zone. It was a process that left me exhausted yet ever more determined. And then finally I did get into the program with the Aid I needed,at the very last moment. It was a breath taking bumpy ride that I am sure was supposed to teach me. So now I have debt, educational debt, but I know that I can not reach goals without that burden, so I must make peace with it. It will help me give 6-6 a better future and more choices. And maybe it will validate me as a Nurse....maybe....

Friday, September 13, 2013

Street Wisdom and Grilled Coconuts....

#Brooklyn " IT BE WHAT IT IS!! " ....I say "hey ! "to the fellow from Islands who is grilling Coconuts every Friday on the Street... as I walk to the Train and this is what he hollers to me as I walk..yup he hollers wisdom to the strange nurse in the white scrubs....Coconuts being grilled on the street -the smell is amazing....so every Friday I walk to the train...( I take the bus in the morn...and train home...) yes it is still a Temp job...and it could end tomorrow...I have to make peace with how things are...I am working with HIV/AIDS patients again and yes some Vets and Homeless too....and teaching about Diseases and condoms...and helping people know their bodies and their diseases ..trying to empower them...

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Orchids at the Corner....

#Brooklyn #nyc My favorite corner market now has Orchids...( which I know the kitties would happily welcome and destroy in about ten minutes)...

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

The Twin Tower Lights...

Dear NYC....I love you...I am so sorry you lost the beautiful Twin Towers...George Bush used to say that 3000 Americans died that day, but the real Truth is the best part of NYC is that there are people from all over the world ....and that day people died from many different countries and not all of them were American...and yes even Muslims died that day...and rarely does anyone mention that....I don't think this day is about Liberty or Patriotism, even though for years that was laid upon Americans and New Yorkers...it is a sad day to remember what was Lost....so much Trust...so many civil liberties....and it led to a decade of war and horrible war crimes...I think it should remind us who we are and that when good lives are lost, there are no bombs or prison camps that can bring them back...and that there are times when Americans should stand up for Peace and still be thought of as Patriotic....New Yorkers I love you and your fearless courage, your hope, your tenacity and your strength....When I see the Blue Lights in the Sky I know that there are many Angels giving you more strength....( Photo taken at 9PM from my roof Brooklyn...)

Sunday, September 08, 2013

Sunday life.....

Beautiful day here...#NYC....tall buildings standing tall in the distance....small Hopper Clouds drifting by and a gentle breeze...Finished painting the Living Room ..WHITE...looks so much better and watching tennis....#USopen #Serena another #Roof photo....

Bird in the Hand....

Sometimes when you least expect it...you get to hold magic in your hand...the smallest treasure can make your heart swell...this little fella needed some warmth and a bit of help the other morning at the bus stop....and then he flew off proudly showing us his new skills....the three of us shared his joy and felt proud as he took his first flight.....Have a good week..look for the unexpected...and treasure even the smallest joys....

Friday, August 23, 2013

Ping Pong at Bryant Park...

#NYC #ByrantPark #PingPong #Wonder So people play pingpong at the table in BryantPark, I confess some are better than others...but this guy yesterday was amazing, some kind of PRO...wicked spin and speed, the balls just kept whizzing by, anyone who walked by was spellbound, transfixed and watching...then people even started being the "Ballboys" going and retrieving balls for the game. ( You can see the one BallBoy fellow in the background). Personally I think adding ballboys to the game makes it so much better....( my dream is that I talk my neighbors into this game and that we set up a table on the roof...but that is my dream....) Look how he holds the paddle...and his intensity...

Mariachi on the Subway....

#NYC #RaineyThursday ....#MariachiOnTheSubway ....made the day so much better..I was rushing to an appointment..soaked ...a full Mariachi band arrived ( and they were good I may say)...I jokingly asked them to play Feliz Navidad...they laughed...but they played it...very nice guys....certainly cheered up a rainey day....

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Empire State Building in all her Glory.....

******************************** And as the sun set Miss Empire State Building was looking so beautiful...Pink and Proud and so tall.....against the blue night sky.....

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Donald The Doorman

The Good the Bad and the Ugly of NYC....so I have shared so many amazing photos of life here.....but seriously the BUGS here are ugly...VERY Ugly...this THING greeted me in the front hall when I got home from work....I have named him Donald the Doorman....for no reason.....but I hope he leaves soon....

Hendrix on the Subway....

#NYC #Brooklyn Friday night went to catch the train.....usually it has been this truly horrible Accordian player ( his repertoire includes three very offkey polka songs...) but last night it was this young girl playing Hendrix on the platform....and she was indeed very talented....this little girl was dancing away totally enthralled...It was the best part of the week watching these two Make Music....

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Urban Oasis....

So a couple of blocks away....this lovely older Chinese man has spent all summer creating this garden oasis....it's so beautiful.....and now the Morning Glories are taking over and so so lush...I have to sneak back during the day and admire the Glories as they wake up.....I am so grateful to have this creation in this hood and so close by....it's so soothing....and such a blessing....and I tell him everytime I see him and he just nods at the nutty redhead who always says thank you....

Monday, August 12, 2013

NYC Sunsets are amazing....

Good Night folks...sipping iced tea on the roof tonight..watching the sunset...take care out there....

Saturday, August 10, 2013

All Nurses Have Stories....

...................................... Okay...so for 3 weeks I have been working a Temp job that I very much hope will last........it is with HIV and AIDS ......I took care of my first AIDS patient in 1982 in Baltimore....I was a nursing student working weekends as a Nursing Assistant on an Oncology floor....and he was a young airlines steward whose young body was ravaged so quickly and he was so alone in isolation with sad blue eyes ...he kept saying over and over "Why ? Why? " That one question haunted me...even while working PEDS in New England a few years later I never forgot him...and then by late 80's I was in Seattle helping set up First AIDS Hospice in the Country in an old battered house..that was my favorite job in many ways.....and I was also working ER making sure to get people tested....and then even teaching HIV classes and Caregiver classes...and training other people to do testings.....getting kicked out of a highschool class teaching because I brought bananas and cucumbers and condoms to really teach them.....sigh.....and battling with the Seattle PD WHY a Needle Exchange would help protect people's health ...and why giving the Working Girls condoms mattered....and picking up our little table and moving it down the block from the Pike Street market and cursing those cops...and then setting up Hospice and nursing care and infusion therapy at home for patients and friends too... for many many more through the nineties ....and on and on....this one disease has really in so many ways transformed me as a Nurse....but also as a person...it has horrified me..haunted me...it has made me read and research at all hours.....it has made me get up at 5am to make sure people got their care.....NYC still all of these years later has the highest HIV and AIDS rates in the country...and on and on the story goes....All Nurses have stories...

Sunday, August 04, 2013

Thinking Out Loud on The Roof....

*********************************** I go to the Roof when I need to think....when I need to get grounded...clear my head..and sometimes meditate..when it is quiet....Sometimes seagulls are up there as well...I see the Lights in the other apartments...it reminds me that I am not alone, there are so many others here struggling to get by and to stay strong...there are other families...there are elderly getting bathed for bed..there newly arrived immigrant families with small babies....there are young couples trying to make their way...I can see them in the windows...and hear the sounds and smell food cooking....at all hours there is the smell of Curry or Cardamon and hot coffee and often burnt bagels....We all need a Think Spot....but we also all need reminders that we are not alone in our struggles....and that Life Goes On...That Tomorrow will come, with it's own set of mysteries and gifts......Good Night Friends...take care and have a good week....

Saturday, August 03, 2013

Urban Gardens.....

..................................... ‪#‎Sundrenched‬....‪#‎UrbanGardens‬ I love it when you turn a corner and there are flowers taller than expected reaching for the sky oblivious to cars, trucks, exhaust and all the city noise and havoc....I love how they smell after the rains....warm and earthy....and slightly sweet...

Thursday, August 01, 2013

Wisdom of Trees....

..................... #‎nyc‬ ‪#‎Brooklyn‬ ‪#‎Trees‬ ‪#‎Benches‬ I don't miss my garden so much anymore...there are so many wonderful green heavenly moments here to embrace and soak in...and benches..there is nothing I treasure more than benches under the trees.....

Monday, July 29, 2013

Keep Looking Up......

***************************************************" The wings of hope carry us, soaring high above the driving winds of life. "~~ Ana Jacob........Sometimes we need to keep looking up...knowing that there is just a bit of Hope in the smallest of moments...a Blue Sky....sun....a warm breeze...you can live in the City and still see Seagulls flying above...I believe they carry a bit of Hope where ever they go....I saw these amazing buildings walking to catch the train...there they were all lined up standing so shiny....perserved...with gulls flying above....they looked like old friends together for a very long time....Good Night dear friends...remember to look up tomorrow....take care...

Sunday, July 28, 2013

The Wedding.....

.............................................. "The ‪#‎Wedding‬ " .....so I was rushing to the store to get TP...one of those Rush moments....and I came around the corner to be stopped in my tracks by a beautiful moment.....Greek Church....people lined up out front , waiting expectantly on the steps to the Church....Out the doors burst the lovely couple and yellow rose petals cascading into the air like snow....I stood on my corner with other expectant watchers....a elderly woman leaning on her walker....a young jewish girl watching with longing in her eyes ....and a woman in a Sari holding her little boy close tenderly stroking his head as she watched...and next to me a woman from Islands lightly humming. I turned to the Island woman and she and I both were crying a bit..." They have their whole lives in front of them, such a wonderful thing, ya know" I nodded...." It all -a-starts-now" she said.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Wonders of Central Park....

************************************ #‎CentralPark‬ ‪#‎TheBridge‬ at the Pond...full of fish...Bass..yes really...( Carp and KOI too...and minnows)..so I met Jimmie..the man in the photo..fishing...he was explaining to me about the Bass and sure enough he caught one right there...it was HUGE...he threw it back...( because I was upset...worried about him...) I had never known there were all kinds of fish, turtles at Central Park....this city is fully of Wonders.....

More Wonders of Central Park...Ducks and Koi Fish and Turtles....

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

The Truth about NYC.....

***************************************** About ‪#‎nyc‬....it is not what people say...you always hear that New Yorkers are hard edged and cold...that's really not true.....Some have an edge or are tough , that is true....but many of them have real heart and you see it at Odd UnExpected Moments....And in many ways the people are warmer and more aware and listening than anywhere I have lived....I just had to say that...I have been here a year, a very very hard year...but I feel very grateful and very blessed that I have met some amazing people that have truly given and been there for 6-6 and I.....Thank you.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

A Letter to Trayvon's Family...

To Trayvon's Family, I am so so sorry....We have a Problem in America, we have a Justice Problem, We have a Hate Problem, We have a Problem admitting that we have a Problem. Millions of us know that a Racist Hate Filled Wannebe Cop hunted down your son and shot him...Dead....And we know that there are other Zimmermans out there...and we know there are too many guns out there and too much hate...and we know that there are too many white people who lack the courage to admit that this is real and happening in 2013....But as a mom...I am saying it is real...and I am sorry....

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Justice For Trayvon Martin....

******************************************** This is what needs to be remembered...‪Trayvon Martin‬ was just a boy, a teenager, who went to the store to get some Iced Tea and some skittles for his stepsister. He had family living at a Complex in Florida, he walked to the Store to get the snacks. He had a Hoodie on, because it was raining. And George Zimmerman pretended to be a NeighborHood Watchman, he drove around calling 911 or the PD when he didn't like the looks of someone in his Neighborhood. He called the Dispatcher about The Kid in the Hoodie that he didn't like the looks of. He made disparaging remarks. The Dispatcher told him to stay in the car, and they , the PD would take care of things. But Zimmerman got out of his car and hunted down Trayvon, ignoring her request. And people who lived there heard Cries for Help, that ended when they heard gunshots. Anyone who has heard the 911 Tapes of that day , hears a young boy begging for Help. I am praying that there will be Justice for Trayvon Martin's Family. No boy anywhere should be hunted down and shot on a rainy afternoon whole going to the store to get Skittles and Iced Tea. We have a problem in this Country, Too Many White Men with Guns pretending they are Cops and better than others, pretending they are The Law. This Case is not just about One Trigger Happy Wannabe Cop....It is about our Gun Culture that is consumed with Hate and Fear and Loathing. Prayers to Trayvon's Family and prayers to all those with sons who worry daily about What and Who is out there with a Gun.

Sunday, June 30, 2013

The Wisdom of Bobby Kennedy ( His Famous Capetown Ripples of Hope Speech)

#Food4Thought I share this photo as Nelson Mandela remains critically ill, and as many still hold his legacy, his work, his hardship , his strength so dearly....Apartheid is not merely a memory , a stain..it is a dangerous condition that can creep into any society or culture or country, there are always people who will seek to create divisions as they greedily seek more power and they do not care who they harm in this process. Therefore there must always be people of courage and conviction who speak Truth and Fight Back.....photo via Twitter ( Michael Beschloss ) @BeschlossDC This image shows Robert Kennedy speaking in South Africa 1966 literally under sign of apartheid. LINK to the Speech and AUDIO is here and the AUDIO is in remarkable condition.

Saving Smokey.....

******************************** People say New Yorkers are tough..cold even. They even say that about Brooklyn folks...BUT...it ain't so....So out walking and we meet this amazing couple pushing a tiny baby stroller and in it is a tiny kitten. This is the Story of Anna...a local unsung Hero....she heard this poor kitten crying stuck between two buildings, and somehow she got him out. He is about 3 weeks old, will fit in the palm of your hand. He has a gash on his neck and needs to be bottlefed....Yeah, this tough wonderful angel of a New Yorker is hoping to save tiny Smokey. So bless the big heart of Anna and saying a prayer for Smokey.....( Posted June 14th....Social Media)

Saturday, June 29, 2013

Courage Shoes...

#MyCourageShoes Many of us Women have been admiring Wendy Davis's shoes this week...it's NOT about the Shoes..they represent so much more...Raw Courage, GUTS, Determination, Endurance, Justified Anger, Claiming One's Better Warrior, Fighting Back, BadAss Battle Shoes...I have my own Warrior Wendy Shoes....I wear them on the Bus...the Subway....to the Gym....walking to the Dollar Store...They were 2 dollars 3 years ago, and the Magic Started when I painted them...They are my Kickass Shoes...they survived a hellish flood and a hellish move...They Are my Fighting Back Shoes...They are my #CourageShoes...#MyWendyShoes We all need to have some #CourageShoes ....

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Gardens in the Concrete Jungle....

****************************** "Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come."~~~Anne Lamott ~~~// Waiting to hear SCOTUS decisions..Silently praying that Love Wins....Waiting to hear back on three jobs I applied for ....so much of Hope is tied to Patience...The Patience and Faith of Waiting...But Anne is right ...to have Hope one must be Stubborn....As Stubborn as a garden in the midst of a concrete jungle....

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Up On The Roof.....

So I went up to the Roof..waiting for the Moon.....it was quiet....and a gentle breeze....Seagulls flying over....TV's humming from the buildings....some music floating on the breeze...#BeautifulNight #NYC

Friday, June 21, 2013

Petunias at Sunset....

"If you wish to leave the world better than you found it, you must care about others "~~Florence Griffith Joyner

Thursday, June 20, 2013

When Caged Birds Sing....

********************************** "Hoping for the best, prepared for the worst, and unsurprised by anything in between."~~ From "I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings" Maya Angelou. // #NYC So I was walking around (on the way to another job interview) and I hear Birds chattering and singing. And I turned my head and there lined up along the wall were their cages neatly lined up. And the Auto shop where they live, two of the workers were singing back to them. They were singing Lionel Richie..."Sail On"...( I think the Birds were singing too...) That is what I love about New York...What you least expect...in some way seems very normal...and Expected....Big Guys with Tools singing with their Birds on a hot summer day....

Finding Light.....

****************************** It's All About Finding The Light....So Helen Keller said "Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light." So I had Interviews yesterday....and four dollars in my pocket..I had Lunch at Grand Central ( coconut mango tapioca,seriously the very best thing I have ever eaten for $2.00) ..and I sat and watched People....and even in Survival Mode..you have to appreciate the little things around you...The Sudden Beautiful Light....couples in Love holding hands...children laughing on the subway.....I know many of us are searching for work and a Happy Ending ...a Better Life...we all have to remember we are not alone...or in the Dark...there is Light and we have each other.....

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Flowers on the Fire Escape....

************************ I have not written here in months, partly because I find New Blogger cumbersome, not really user friendly. And then on another note I finally realized I hate coming to my old Blog because I see the FLOOD all over again, and I don't want to see it or think about it. I don't think folks realize that Disasters leave scars and wounds, that need time to heal. My son and I did make it to Brooklyn, we did find a nice landlord ( and Building Manager, and Super and even a really nice maintenance guy). So we got very lucky in NYC. And our rent and utilities and expenses are actually much cheaper than Cleveland ( yeah really). And I go for long talk walks with my neighbor, which also means that Lilly Dog has a walking buddy now. And living in a four story walk up is not so bad, it gets incredible Light. So there are good things here. But 6-6 and I have mostly been in survival mode this year,it has been very rough. And I think it will take a couple of years to get settled here, but 6-6 does not want us to give up his dream to be here, so I am giving it all I have got. The photo was some beautiful flowers spied on a fire escape down an alley...That is how NYC really is...you can turn the corner and something Amazing will take away your breath when you least expect it....Expect It.

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Winter Dreams....

******************************* Trying to learn New Blogger Set Up....and still trying to get settled...and grounded...and connected...and stay Hopeful...so stay tuned.....( Columbus Circle on a cold January Night...it smells of popcorn and pretzels..and hot coffee).